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Oh a whim this evening, I took a look at my university’s job listing website.  I’ve never found it all that useful in the past, as there aren’t very many postings near my hometown for use in the summers when looking for jobs/internships.  However, now that I pretty much have the opportunity to do anything I want, anywhere I want, I don’t mind looking at job offerings all around the country.

Except…  Most of the offerings are either for business school students or teach-English-abroad type jobs.  Granted, our business school is one of the top in the country, and granted, most post-grad jobs that are offered this early in the year are business-type jobs, but I had still hoped for a bit more variety.  Alas, it was not to be.

But all is not lost.  I was encouraged that there was a spread of locations for the jobs being offered.  Granted, there were very few outside of my university’s state, DC, and NYC, but there were some.  And I’m hoping that come spring, when hopefully the job postings will increase, there will be even more around the country.

And I think I might want to live somewhere that my family doesn’t.  Somewhere along the east coast would be ideal, but I wouldn’t say no to so California sun!

It is scary to consider where I might be a year from now, but also thrilling, but terrifying, but awesome, but AHHH!

Time to stop thinking about this gigantic thing that I can do nothing about before I really work myself into a tizzy!


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Curse You, Thesis!

Well, first of all, I cracked 30 pages on my thesis last week!  Yey me!  But this week I need to crack 40–at the very least!–and I totally had a plan for that, I swear!  But, as always, I got sidetracked by a million and one other things, and so have not written a single word thus far.  Well, actually I did a touch of research last night and took a few notes, but that doesn’t count.

However, I did not come here to vent about my writing woes, but rather about how writing takes me away from other things, like looking into what the H-E-double hockey sticks I’m going to do after I graduate in, oh, 6 months, give or take a few weeks.

So today, my daily blog reading started me on a very dangerous path, which of course I followed.  I can’t even remember what the original post was, but I’ve followed the path for about 2 hours now, and it’s giving me all of these crazy ideas about things I should be doing right now, as in right this instance, to build up some sort of a portfolio of something for post-grad, even though I’m not sure where I will be or what I’ll be doing then.

Basically, the path is certain ways to make a living online, though not through scams, of course, but rather legitimate ways of having a career that is based online.  Which sounds rather ideal to li’l ol’ introverted me who never wants to live in a big city, yet appears to have interests in careers that are almost solely based in big cities (*cough* publishing *cough*).

Now, I’m most likely not going to actually do any of the specific careers that these articles/blogs/forums/videos that I have discovered suggest, but they are giving me some interesting ideas for other options I might want to consider.  And I want to consider them, I really do!

But, I need to do my thesis!

But, isn’t my future more important than my thesis?

But I won’t have a future if I don’t finish my thesis, causing me to not graduate…

But my mother is encouraging me to take a semester off anyway

But who takes a semester off when they only have one semester of college left?

But what does this all have to do with following career paths?


Me, myself, and I are very good debaters.  It’s rather dangerous and time-consuming.

So, in short, I know I need to write my thesis, and I should just sit down, write 5 pages tonight, and 5 tomorrow, and be done with the 10 pages for this week, and then I can concentrate on these other fun paths.


I have another 10 pages I need to do for next week.

And then I have to start editing this monstrosity in earnest.

ooo, maybe I’ll watch The Importance of Being Earnest!

No!  Curse you, fabulous movies!

I am going to write my thesis tonight.

After I follow this path a little further…

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Lessons of Me

Since returning to school, I have had a bit of time to do some self-reflections, and I am yet again amazed at how much I love being at school.  I mean, every summer (and Christmas break!) since I arrived at college has been spent with me wanting to be back at school so much, and then when I finally return, I am happier than I could ever imagine!

Some people have suggested that it’s because el boyo is here, but it really isn’t that (sorry!).

I just love learning.

I love discussing things with others, whether they be peers, or authority figures, or high schoolers.

And college is the only place that I can think of where that is truly, purely, possible.  You can have a conversation with anyone about anything, and you can actually learn something new every single day.  And it’s not just about one topic, but rather every topic you can imagine, and many that you cannot.

And the people!  Oh, the people.

I have spent the last couple of days with people that have never really met me before, and they all think me an extrovert, even though I am most definitely an introvert in the vast majority of situations.  But here at school, I am a senior, and therefore pretty much know what is going on, and I just have this fantastic confidence thing going on that I have never really seen so fully in myself before.  And it enables me to talk to people so much more than I would in any other situation.  And so I meet people, I learn things, and it is amazing!

The only slight problem is that I still am very much an introvert, and therefore am unsure of how to continue such things outside these situations.  Anyone have any suggestions?

Anyway, another slight problem is that I simply love discussing academic type things, and have approximately zero use for the celebrity gossip and other such nonsense that generally fills the silences.  And I know others want to relax and talk about other things, but this is my way of relaxing.  And I think I’ve found a few people who are sort of like that, but not really.  And so it’s hard to keep talking when they feel the academic discussions have been fully covered.

And I’m rambling again, as I tend to do when I get excited about a topic…

So I am left yet again with searching for a path to follow post-graduation that will allow me to continue to be around other intelligent, amazing people, who think that chatting about academic things is fun.  Except I don’t want to be cornered into just one area of study/interest.  Any suggestions?

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I usually try to post book reviews on Mondays, but as I mentioned earlier, I’ve been a wee bit busy, and thus have been unable to read anything (well, in the interest of full disclosure, I did start a book, but it was so bad, I put it down and returned it to the library unfinished – a real disappointment – perhaps I’ll blog about it later).  However, I did discover a new (to me) used bookstore in town!

So el boyo was visiting last week, and one day I was in a pretty bad mood (I can’t remember exactly why), and I felt bad about ruining a day with el boyo, so I finally agreed to walk into town with him, since it was such a lovely day and I needed to get out of the house.  So we spent 45 minutes walking all the way into town (a trip that takes 7 minutes by car).

Walking through the first set of little boutique  stores that make up our downtown, we passed a sign pointing down a small alley, indicating a used bookstore back there.  I had passed this sign countless times in the nine years I have lived here, but never taken the initiative to actually check it out.  Since el boyo loves books as much as I do, we made the decision to check it out.  And I am so happy I made that decision!

The bookstore was tiny, but crammed with books, organized by topic.  There were far more non-fiction books, on a variety of topics, than fiction, which was actually quite refreshing, though I normally read fiction over non.  We spent a good amount of time browsing the selection, and I was delighted by the offerings, as well as the more-than-reasonable prices.  And there was a fabulous selection of really wonderful-looking versions of books, again for great prices.

I did end up buying a book that caught my eye and turned out to have some information that could be useful in my research for my thesis this summer – so serendipitous!  I will definitely be frequenting the shop now that I know it’s there.

The whole visit really perked me up.  It was (and still is, looking back now) astonishing to see the change in my mood from before I entered the store and after.  As I told el boyo (for future reference, of course), any time I’m in a bad mood, simply stick me in a room full of books, and the peace and quiet required to explore said books, and I shall perk right up – and indeed become quite hyper!  The transformative power of books on my mood/soul is amazing!  I shall never understand people who do not feel the same way.

So now I’m thinking (not for the first – nor certainly the last!) that I need to own a small, cozy bookstore when I grow up (and for the record, no, at 20, I am not grown up).  Thoughts?

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As some of you dear readers may know, I’ve worked at my local library in Hometown since I was a sophomore in high school, first year round as a page (meaning I put books back on shelves after people returned them) and then, during college vacations, as a fill-in wherever I’ve been needed, whether it be at the circulation desk, or as a fill-in children’s librarian, or even in the basement, covering books in plastic and putting call number stickers on them.  Annually, I also get to work for approximately twelve hours in one day, as the library opens its doors to the high school population only, on the Sunday before exam week, which was today.

And I love it!  Granted, paging was kind of boring, but I was able to discover so many books that I never would have otherwise.  I love working with people, helping them find books, talking about favorite books, making recommendations, just as much as I love being in the basement, handling all the new books that come through the door, right before they enter the hands of the waiting public (and not only because it means first dibs!).

When I was briefly in France for a very abbreviated, uncomfortable stay (don’t get me wrong – I love France, but this visit just wasn’t the best), I had a half hour walk from where I was staying to the school where I was taking language classes.  In fact, it was a 20-30 minute walk to get to just about anywhere in the town.  So I plugged into my iPod and discovered the glory of podcasts, because despite having a few thousand songs on that same iPod, it does get repetitive after a while.  I developed very discriminating tastes for my podcasts as I walked through the streets of France, and I eventually discovered a few podcasts that were put on by librarians, discussing issues of the day,  problems facing libraries.  I listened, and I learned.

As a rising senior in college, with a brother who graduated from college a month ago, and as someone who reads the paper daily, my future is on my mind a lot.  And, just like when I was attempting to chose my major, I feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions that I simply can’t pick any.  Unlike my major, which I was able to design myself in a multi-disciplinary approach, life doesn’t seem to appreciate that approach.

Ok, so I want to go to grad school.  But first I need to pick an area to concentrate on.  Ok, so law school might be a good idea, but it means a 3-year commitment to something I’m not sure is right for me.  Ok, the workforce is out there waiting, but in this economy?  And with my indecision?  Ha!

So what does this have to do with librarianship?  Well, recently it’s become more and more of a consideration for me.  Before, it was more in the back of my mind than anything else.  But in the past few weeks, it has started edging out the competition.  In the past few weeks, I have enjoyed working at the library for a few hours a day, and only stop at a few hours because I have to.  In the past few weeks, there have been celebrations for the retiring library director, whose amazing accomplishments have been highlighted, making me think, “I want to do that!  I want to help people discover how amazing libraries are!  I want to bring a community together through a love of books!  I want to make a difference!”

My mother works at the same library full time, which is actually what originally led me to apply for a job there.  And I know that my father thinks it’s a nice job and all, but it’s not a real job.  It’s not a vocation.  It’s something old ladies and mothers do to keep busy when they no longer have to take care of their children full time.  It’s not worthy of the high potential of my mind.  I know I’m the smartest child in my family (a fact that’s just a fact, not for bragging purposes here).  And I know my father has high expectations of me.  Yes, he’ll support me in anything I want to do, because he loves me, but I know that if I choose this route, he’ll be disappointed and think that I sold myself short.

My professors at college also have high expectations of me.  I am continually told that I should go to grad school, that I am grad school material.  All compliments I love to hear and that reinforce my desire to go to grad school.  But if I told them that I was going to grad school to become a librarian?  I can see the raised eyebrows now, the questions about if this is something I really want to do.

And it is!  And it isn’t.  I don’t know.  It’s an area that I think I would love to pursue, but I’m not sure if I want to pursue it to the exclusion of anything else.  And I know that I’m young, but I don’t want to pursue something half-heartedly.  If I do something, I need to know that it’s the right thing for me to do.  And I know that life doesn’t always work that way, but grad school does.

And if you’ve made it here, to the end of this long foray into the morasses of my mind, dear readers, I thank you.  Any advice, life lessons, or any comment at all is greatly appreciated!

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About two weeks ago, I decided to try to post everyday for as long as possible. As anyone who happens to pop by regularly may have noticed, that failed miserably the second spring break hit. So now, a week after the end of spring break, I’m back!

No more promises to post every single day. I’m going to post when I want. And I hope that that will be on a regular basis. But if I make the promise that I will post every single day, the second I realize I have missed a day, my motivation declines ever-so-sharply and I stop posting for weeks instead of simply one day.

I feel I have some new-found vigor, probably thanks to the advent of spring, and with any luck, this blog will stop being a flickering candle and will strengthen to a strong flame.

Wish me luck!

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It seems as though I have finally found something to focus on for my senior thesis!  This is truly an exciting day!  It still needs to be condensed a bit more, but this is so much farther than I thought I would be even a week or two ago!

I’ve been reading a lot of different books on different, yet slightly interrelated topics for the past 6 or so weeks, attempting to find something that a) sparks my interest enough that I think I can stand to research it for about a year and b) is small enough that I can write a 50-page paper on it.  We started out in the approximate universe that I thought I wanted to work on, which I’ve had in mind since I finalized the design of my major this time last year.  With a fast-approaching deadline for a summer research grant application that we discovered could be useful, I hurridly narrowed it down to the solar system that I might consider studying.  And now I believe I have landed on a planet to study*

I can see a lot of potential in this planet of study, as can my advisor–I think.  There doesn’t seem to be too much written on the approximate field, and certainly nothing in the way we–I mean, I** am looking at it.  Granted, I’ve done about an hour of research on this specific area, but still 😀

And the best part is that I can see myself staying interested in this for a while, because it demands a lot of research into a lot of first-hand accounts, which I usually find pretty interesting.  But we shall see if my first actual foray into archival research bears this out…

*This is metaphorical, of course, as I am most certainly not in the sciences, as this semester in which I am taking my one and only required science course has made only too clear!

**In writing the proposal for the aforementioned grant, I kept using “we” and my advisor insisted on changing all the “we”s to “I”s, since it’s all my project and my proposal, and I’m doing the research.  While I see his point, and I appreciate his support of my ideas, I still think of it as collaborative, even though he’s basically a sounding board for my ideas…

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